A new year 2010, a new beginning?

Pictured above taken from our balcony overlooking the Thames River and part of London's skyline. The semi-circle in the bright green light is actually the London Eye, kept changing colours when the countdown to 2010 began. Quite a view really, especially when it's all lit up. I guess I would feel extremely pleased and delighted with where we are based at currently, but there's just something missing I thought. A job perhaps? We just moved to our new place couple of days before the new year's, had a nice meal at home and had some quiet time in the flat and just watch the fireworks display along the river from our balcony. Quite spoilt for choices really, so many fireworks going on at the same time. 

Honestly, I have no answer, quite stressful for us trying to draw up plans and making decisions about our next move and jobs and so on. Seemed quite unsettled, really! I am trying to avoid being long-winded but to summarise, we sort of found out we made a wrong, not quite right and brilliant decision of moving over to London, worst bit is bad things just seemed to tail us endlessly. Leaving us both sitting here thinking what went wrong, but we were pretty sure this was the best option. Everyone seemed to think so anyway. I sit and stare out of my balcony and bedroom window frequent just looking out far and hoping I can see some hope, some hint that something good will work out eventually. I frequent have thoughts and start analysing our moves, anything else we can do, any other possible exit options for us and seems like no one can tell me what is right. Is it a wrong city, wrong industry/sector, wrong flat, wrong area, wrong timing??? I still don't know. Only time can tell.

Anyone made any lists or new year's resolution? I haven't done mine, just too many things to sort out, to list them all out, the thought of it scares me. I hope to find a job soon, something I would enjoy doing and feel more settled in London and have a clearer view of what lies ahead for both of us and finish off the second bit of our wedding which would be held in Malaysia sometime later this year, if all pulls through. Amazing, I have never applied for so many jobs before in my entire life, I probably clicked "Apply" for 30 times at least up till now. Just pray and hope for the best really, maybe our perseverance will somehow pay off eventually.

Wish me luck!

Cheers,
Wendy